March 01, 2007
~ Randomly...
How could a dream be so reflective... But they are supposed to be. Still, I marvel at some of the landscapes that Sandman brings me to on certain nights.
Almost like real... Almost.
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Peace and relief follows the end of denial. I hope so too. It's up to me.
But I think my motivation now is still self-protect. I rather procrastinate on moving on than to lose that scepticism. I rather there is no next attempt at love than to attempt to believe and then, be let down. Rather still feel that pinch of pain and that almost-crying mood than to start looking into the future where the next one might be.
It's good enough, just like this now.
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Work's been picking up speed this week, after CNY. Yesterday was Kat's last day. I'm very thankful for her help and mentoring, whenever she can, during the past one month. I'm taking over her projects, on top of my own. That will be a total of 5 projects on my hands now.
My AD asked if the job's been up to my expectation so far. I told him I try not to have too much expectations before going into anything. He asked for example, if I expected to work long hours. I replied almost immediately. No. I never expect to work long hours. I mean, come on! Who would? I have a life outside work, ya. I think I made myself clearer when I continued by saying that I only have one expectation from my work - to be able to maintain a work-life balance. And he said, of course
lah!Then, you still asked?!?!
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Anyway, impression management is important. Something about this was taught to me in the module "Self and Society". Erving Goffman. I just can't recall the term now. Haha...
Make it a point to leave office by 7pm, latest. I would rather come home and do nothing. Work is, after all, unfinishing.
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It's another one those chilly, cloudy nights.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:13